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Two days ago I found a quote that touched me. I even posted it here on dA.“A good dog never dies. He always stays. He walks besides you on crisp autumn days when frost is on the fields and winter's drawing near. His head is within our hand in his old way.”
I never knew that it will be so fitting today.
Nugat was only one year and four months old. But let's start from the beginning...
This little pup was born on a long summer night. I helped the dog mummy with the birth (being a good midwoof). He was the only chocolate lab in the litter - his seven siblings were black.
I will never forget how beautiful his eyes were when he was a puppy - a lovely shade of blue.
Then he grew up. His eyes changed color, but his mind was still puppy-like. He was full of joy and his heart was huge, that much love he had for everyone.
Three days ago he started to have eye infection. We took him to the vet today. He told us his lower eyelid turns inwards and his eyelashes irritate his eye. He prescribed some eyedrops. And then he checked his abdomen... And decided to do an USG. His reaction after seeing the image was "fuck... I've never seen anything like this".
We took Nugat to a vet clinic in bigger city immediately. It was a long car ride, I was sitting in the back of the car, comforting my dog friend.
The vets also did an USG, their reaction was the same. They took Nugat to the operation theatre to do an explorative laparotomy. They told us we shouldn't be optimistic... I was with him when he was beginning to sleep - kissed his head and nose.
During the surgery, one of the vets came out and told us about the situation. A big tumor and metastases near his intestines. Nothing could be done - we agreed to euthanise him on the table, because it would be a terrible act of egoism to wake him up and let him suffer. It was a quickly growing tumor and soon he'd have his intestines blocked.
I cried so much. And all the way back, still imagining maybe it was some kind of a cruel joke and he will stand up and lick my ear. It was something unimaginable for me - to take a dog to have his eyes checked, and to return with his body wrapped in blanket. I just can't believe it happened. He was so full of life and energy, so young...
If you have dog friends, please give them a big nose-kiss from me. And hug them tightly.
Thank you TheSilentFall
for making this
And thank you LadyJaney01
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